Today at Reality, Dave Lomas started a series called “The Evil Within.” It’s all about sin. A few weeks ago, I reread The Twilight Saga, and since that just wasn’t enough, I went to Stephenie Meyers’ website and found the copy of Midnight Sun, the unfinished draft of Twilight from Edward’s perspective. It was interesting to read because it helped me better understand Edward’s self-torment because of his love for Bella, and to see where he’s coming from much better. I hope Stephenie Meyers decides to finish it. Maybe when the hype for all the movies start to die down.
In Midnight Sun, we can read about how Edward thirsts for Bella’s blood but resists, for various reasons, one being that he loves her so much that he can’t stand to hurt her. It’s in his nature to kill her, being that he’s a vampire, but his love for her is greater than his instincts, so he doesn’t.
It’s like what Dave Lomas talked about today. “We’re not sinners because we sin. We sin because we’re sinners.” It’s in our nature as human beings to sin.
“For from within, out of men’s hearts, come evil thoughts, sexual immorality, theft, murder, adultery, greed, malice, deceit, lewdness, envy, slander, arrogance and folly.” -Mark 7:21-22.
But because we love Jesus, we resist. And, lucky us, we have something Edward doesn’t have in his fight against his nature: the power of Jesus.
“I took a deep breath, concentrating for one moment on the burning thirst. Feeling it, managing it, proving my dominion over it. It would never control me again–I willed that to be true.” -Edward
He has to use his own strength and will. Fortunately, we don’t. (Because if we did, we’d definitely fail, and our “Bellas” would be dead.)
“For the Son of Man came not to be served but to serve, and to give His life as a ransom for many.” -Mark 10:45
“I can do everything through him who gives me strength.” -Philippians 4:13